There is no one like God who shakes the ground before us. He is brave, and kind, and wondrous, and careful. He is everything we are, and everything we're not. He is the part of us that we can't be by ourselves.
There is a verse that Project Transformation presented to interns during training week, a verse to "live by" throughout the summer:
May the God who makes everything holy and whole, make you holy and whole, put you together–spirit, soul, and body. Thessalonians 5:23
This summer, I am finding pieces of myself here and there - not to say I am falling apart, but rather, I am all over the place. I am excited to get to site every day, but also tired by the time we return...I am confident in all I do, but unsure of plenty too...I love the new group of interns, but miss the old, familiar faces of last summer...I'm at peace in Dallas, but I'm homesick at the same time. At PT, there is always SO much going on - at site with the kids, before they get there, while they're there, after they leave, back at campus there's dinner, and events, and of course late night preparation for the next day, and late night talks and games with new friends. With my time here, I've realized how hard it is to set your sights on a goal, and leave your sights on that one, solitary goal until it's complete. My goal at the beginning of the summer was simple - to be more vulnerable. To what? Nothing in particular, just generally more vulnerable. Well, that's easy enough.
Maybe not, because I have yet to meet my goal. Along the way, though, I have developed countless more goals, including the whole "being whole" thing : ). I have come to find out that sometimes it is just as important to be always trying to reach my goals as it is to succeeding and moving on from them. I am a better person attempting to better myself, and if I had no goals to work up to, I wouldn't have that. Maybe who I am is not "vulnerable," and it's important to know that you can't be everything. That is part of how God makes us whole - we don't have to be what we aren't because he can step in and be that for us. Even when I think I can't be vulnerable - God is there and he tells me I can do it through him. He shakes the very ground before me and makes it possible.
The interns here are very much working together through God. He takes parts of each of us, and shows us how we can be whole with one another. He lets us know that it's okay we can't be everything - we can't be Superman - but together, we can complete one another and accomplish all that needs to be done in a beautiful way. We can return the blessing and shake the ground for him.
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